It is one thing to know that you aren't going to have much muscles left after being in bed for a long time, it is a complete other to be told you will most likely need physical therapy to really be able to get back on your feet! WOW! I know I am getting weaker & weaker by the day. Shoot, by the end of a 10 minute shower, I am winded & needing to get straight in to bed to calm down again.
Reality is setting in. I think part of me knew about what the recovery was going to be like but seeing that I needed 8 weeks after the c-section to recover & most likely longer b/c of the lack of muscles I have...well...it is a scary thought. I have always been use to being able-bodied & active. I am very self-sufficient. Now days, not so much. Todd has to help me out of the shower. He helped me dress myself b/c I was exhausted. He put deoderant on for me. Basically, without him by my side, I could not make it through a 10 minute shower. It makes me sad.
How am I going to do this after the babies are born? How am I going to manage healing from the c-section, going to physical therapy, visiting the NICU, & managing to just take care of the basics in between all that? I shudder at the thought of how miserable I am going to be physically after all this is said & done. Being in bed is the easy part, most days, but then to have to deal w/ 3 babies...geez...wow...HELP!
I have talked to a couple of triplet mommies here in the area & they said it took about a year to really get back to their normal states. A whole year to regain the muscle strength & stamina. A WHOLE YEAR! Yeah, I'm freaking out just a little but not so much that I am not up for the challenge. If I can make it through this...the bedrest...for 15 weeks which would put us at 34 weeks gestation, then that is the biggest hurdle of all. The rest will just be what it is. I'm just glad I realize the battle I have ahead of me. I know Todd will support me throughout all this. He is my rock.
Ok, I feel a little better now that I have written about it. I'll be A-OK! Please keep the prayers coming!