What do the 3 have in common besides the obvious babies...nothing except that it really makes what we are going through REAL. Let me start w/ the registering.
Now, obviously I can't go into the stores & register which really takes the fun out of it b/c you can put your hands on things & you can really see what they look like. So, when you are stuck having to register online, it isn't quite as much fun & it is very tedeous. Not that I don't mind b/c honestly...it takes up quite a bit of time to look & has made the past few days go by quickly. Also, being a first time mommy, I have no idea what I really need & what I don't. I know I am missing things on there so if you have any suggestions, please feel free to let me know!
On the flip side, I have been avoiding the whole registry thing b/c I feel that I am jinxing the pregnancy & am doomed. I don't know why I feel this way. It is really weird to think that by buying something which I have also avoided doing or registering for baby items will bring an early demise to the babies. It is just a feeling I can't shake BUT as the showers quickly approach, I have been forced to finally sit down & deal w/ this. I guess this stems from all the scares we have had thus far & also the fact that we have already lost 1 baby before this pregnancy. The innocence & joy of pregnancy has been snatched from me & I am trying to regain some of it. So far, so good & I have been able to enjoy picking out all the cute things for the babies. I guess you can say I have overcome a serious obstacle although I will still not purchase anything for the babies myself.
The way I feel about the registry is the same way I feel about the showers. I so badly want to enjoy them b/c they really are a time to celebrate the life that is growing inside you & also b/c you get showered w/ all the most precious baby items, love & support from those that attend. I have refused any showers before we hit 24 weeks. I just can't bring myself to allow people to bring me gifts for the babies until I know they are at least viable outside of their current home, my womb. After we hit that 24 week mark, I will sigh a big sigh of relief. Trust me, I know that it is still too early for them to come but at least they have a fighting chance.
With that being said, I am really looking forward to the several showers that are being thrown for me. Of course they are all going to be here at our home b/c I can't go anywhere else & honestly, that is fine w/ me. I will sit...ok, ok...LAY my happy butt on the couch & allow everyone to come around me. I hate that I can't move around & hug people all the way but ya know...that is the way the cookie crumbles. I am looking forward to seeing many people & also it gives me something to count down to besides each week we successfully complete. I have to say, it is about time I get the showers after having attended & thrown my own share.
Now for the last part...singing...what in the world am I talking about? Well, a conversation was started on the board I am a part of (Just Mommies) about singing to the baby. Well, if any of you know me well...you know I am a HORRIBLE singer. I can barely carry a note let alone sing a whole song, hehe. Everyone was talking about how special the experience is & how their previous children love it when mommy sings so I decided to embark on the adventure of singing to my 3 babies today. I started singing Twinkle, Twinkle Lil Star & didn't make it much further than that before I started crying. Yeah, I'm an emotional basketcase. Then I started to think about how one day I hope to be singing to them when they are out of my womb & that hopefully they won't start screaming at the top of their lungs at how badly I am doing at it. Maybe they will fall in love w/ my voice & one day beg me to sing them a song before they go to bed. Ah...that would be a dream come true.
Now that I can see how special the singing is, I need to learn a few baby songs b/c I have never had to sing them before! As a matter of fact, I think Twinkle, Twinkle is the only one I know all the words too, haha! Also, with every day that passes, we are 1 day closer to hitting our first goal...24 weeks!
Please keep the prayers coming & know that we really appreciate all the support & love we have been receiving. God Bless!
4 comments:
I mentioned how much my boys love my awful singing voice on JM(even saying "mommy you sounds SO pretty!) Maybe the reason they love my singing is because they heard my awful voice before they were born and so they are comforted, instead of frightened, by it!!! Go for it, they are going to love you more than you can imagine! Take care of yourself! Mary
I had the same feelings about jinxing myself if I bought things for the babies or set up the nursery, etc. I think once I made it to 24 weeks I started to feel a little bit better and by 28 weeks I remember thinking "this is really going to happen!" enjoy your baby showers and keep up the singing!
Sing... loudly, badly, whatever... enjoy it! Your sweet babies will know their mommy's voice and it will calm them. I googled words to songs I knew the tune to and learned them that way. I sing "You are my sunshine" still and it still puts her to sleep. You are doing great and I'm still praying for you each night!
Erin loves it when people sing. ANYONE. It's great, because she loves it more when it's me. And I sing along to the radio at her and she just laughs.
She may be laughing at how I SOUND, but so be it!
I might need to make you a CD of songs I sing to Erin, so you can learn them.
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