What do the 3 have in common besides the obvious babies...nothing except that it really makes what we are going through REAL. Let me start w/ the registering.
Now, obviously I can't go into the stores & register which really takes the fun out of it b/c you can put your hands on things & you can really see what they look like. So, when you are stuck having to register online, it isn't quite as much fun & it is very tedeous. Not that I don't mind b/c honestly...it takes up quite a bit of time to look & has made the past few days go by quickly. Also, being a first time mommy, I have no idea what I really need & what I don't. I know I am missing things on there so if you have any suggestions, please feel free to let me know!
On the flip side, I have been avoiding the whole registry thing b/c I feel that I am jinxing the pregnancy & am doomed. I don't know why I feel this way. It is really weird to think that by buying something which I have also avoided doing or registering for baby items will bring an early demise to the babies. It is just a feeling I can't shake BUT as the showers quickly approach, I have been forced to finally sit down & deal w/ this. I guess this stems from all the scares we have had thus far & also the fact that we have already lost 1 baby before this pregnancy. The innocence & joy of pregnancy has been snatched from me & I am trying to regain some of it. So far, so good & I have been able to enjoy picking out all the cute things for the babies. I guess you can say I have overcome a serious obstacle although I will still not purchase anything for the babies myself.
The way I feel about the registry is the same way I feel about the showers. I so badly want to enjoy them b/c they really are a time to celebrate the life that is growing inside you & also b/c you get showered w/ all the most precious baby items, love & support from those that attend. I have refused any showers before we hit 24 weeks. I just can't bring myself to allow people to bring me gifts for the babies until I know they are at least viable outside of their current home, my womb. After we hit that 24 week mark, I will sigh a big sigh of relief. Trust me, I know that it is still too early for them to come but at least they have a fighting chance.
With that being said, I am really looking forward to the several showers that are being thrown for me. Of course they are all going to be here at our home b/c I can't go anywhere else & honestly, that is fine w/ me. I will sit...ok, ok...LAY my happy butt on the couch & allow everyone to come around me. I hate that I can't move around & hug people all the way but ya know...that is the way the cookie crumbles. I am looking forward to seeing many people & also it gives me something to count down to besides each week we successfully complete. I have to say, it is about time I get the showers after having attended & thrown my own share.
Now for the last part...singing...what in the world am I talking about? Well, a conversation was started on the board I am a part of (Just Mommies) about singing to the baby. Well, if any of you know me well...you know I am a HORRIBLE singer. I can barely carry a note let alone sing a whole song, hehe. Everyone was talking about how special the experience is & how their previous children love it when mommy sings so I decided to embark on the adventure of singing to my 3 babies today. I started singing Twinkle, Twinkle Lil Star & didn't make it much further than that before I started crying. Yeah, I'm an emotional basketcase. Then I started to think about how one day I hope to be singing to them when they are out of my womb & that hopefully they won't start screaming at the top of their lungs at how badly I am doing at it. Maybe they will fall in love w/ my voice & one day beg me to sing them a song before they go to bed. Ah...that would be a dream come true.
Now that I can see how special the singing is, I need to learn a few baby songs b/c I have never had to sing them before! As a matter of fact, I think Twinkle, Twinkle is the only one I know all the words too, haha! Also, with every day that passes, we are 1 day closer to hitting our first goal...24 weeks!
Please keep the prayers coming & know that we really appreciate all the support & love we have been receiving. God Bless!