BLAH...I don't like going to the doctor!

Yeah, well...I think I can officially say that I HATE to go to the peri. I don't like it, don't want to go...it is WAY TOO stressful for me. First, we get there & hardly anyone is there so we think we are in the clear & won't have to wait long. HA! Wouldn't you know it, someone was ready to have their baby so OFF she went to deliver. Then she came back & told us she was really sorry for having to go but this girl was delivering a DEAD baby. Um...yeah...give me some reassurance before we get down to the nitty-gritty!

She put the gel on my tummy & immediately looked at my cervix & as always, a frown came over her face. Ohhhh...I hate seeing that look. She said, "Your cervix is changing. I don't like this, I don't like it a bit." GREAT! Well, it seems she was referring to the wonderful funneling I have had since the 18the week but it seems to be funneling a bit easier & she didn't know what to do about it so we had to go to "the back room".

Mind you, the last time we went to "the back room", we ended up in the hospital. So when we heard that we were going back there, both of us started to realize that maybe we were off to the hospital once again. Also, it takes for ever for her to get back there. It was tough b/c I was thinking for sure that we were headed back. I lost it. I was scared & didn't know what to think or do. I sat there begging God to please give us another 12 days. All I want is to get these babies to the 24 week mark. Then they have a fighting chance. It is OBVIOUS that my body doesn't like being pregnant w/ triplets. I kept thinking that my body was failing the babies. I couldn't help but cry. It was just so hard to sit there & think that our babies would not survive if they came this early. Tough thoughts to deal w/ while waiting to know our fate.

Finally, after ions & ions of time going by, the peri came in & did an internal. OUCHIE! I was not very happy w/ it & she knew about it. She wiggled the cervix around a bit. Then she said, "It is holding strong. I think I feel comfortable enough to send you home for now." WHEW! You have no idea how that hour of waiting was before she said those words. TORTUOUS! I guess I need to get use to this part. How someone can do that, I have no idea.

I am going to monitor 3 times a day now, just to make me feel more comfortable. I just don't want to be having too many contractions at any other given time b/c I always seem to fly right underneath the radar every time I monitor in the morning & in the evening. If I break through w/ more than 4 an hour, my dose of albuterol will go from every 6 hrs to every 4 hrs & if that doesn't work, then I will get the terbutaline pump which would really suck BUT if it keeps the babies in, so be it. I don't know if anyone has had to experience that drug but it makes you really shaky & also makes your heart race. To top it off, it makes you very jittery & ready to jump out of your skin at any sound that is not expected. To give you an idea of what it feels like, think of that long night you didn't have any sleep & then the million cups of coffee you had the next day to keep you awake. Yeah...that feeling...that is what the terbutaline pump will make me feel like all day long.

I have been knocked down to 1 dose of my metformin (500mg) per day. I asked about when we could get the steroid shot for the babies lungs & she said not before 23 1/2 weeks. The babies' lungs aren't developed until that point so you can't give it before then. So, that is only 7 days away if we need it. If I stay stable, she will hold off until it is absolutely necessary.

For now, I am tucked into my own bed & greatful to be home. I am praying that I can stay here until I hit 24 weeks. After that, I will surrender myself to the hospital when they need me to go. What ever it takes...that is what I will do. Thank you all for the well wishes. It was a bit of a scare today but we made it through.

PLEASE keep the prayers coming! We only need another 12 days under our belt. Only 12 days.



PS ~ Jean Marie...you rock! I received your wonderful care package! LOVE YOU!