Thursday, January 10, 2008

BLAH...I don't like going to the doctor!

Yeah, well...I think I can officially say that I HATE to go to the peri. I don't like it, don't want to is WAY TOO stressful for me. First, we get there & hardly anyone is there so we think we are in the clear & won't have to wait long. HA! Wouldn't you know it, someone was ready to have their baby so OFF she went to deliver. Then she came back & told us she was really sorry for having to go but this girl was delivering a DEAD baby. Um...yeah...give me some reassurance before we get down to the nitty-gritty!

She put the gel on my tummy & immediately looked at my cervix & as always, a frown came over her face. Ohhhh...I hate seeing that look. She said, "Your cervix is changing. I don't like this, I don't like it a bit." GREAT! Well, it seems she was referring to the wonderful funneling I have had since the 18the week but it seems to be funneling a bit easier & she didn't know what to do about it so we had to go to "the back room".

Mind you, the last time we went to "the back room", we ended up in the hospital. So when we heard that we were going back there, both of us started to realize that maybe we were off to the hospital once again. Also, it takes for ever for her to get back there. It was tough b/c I was thinking for sure that we were headed back. I lost it. I was scared & didn't know what to think or do. I sat there begging God to please give us another 12 days. All I want is to get these babies to the 24 week mark. Then they have a fighting chance. It is OBVIOUS that my body doesn't like being pregnant w/ triplets. I kept thinking that my body was failing the babies. I couldn't help but cry. It was just so hard to sit there & think that our babies would not survive if they came this early. Tough thoughts to deal w/ while waiting to know our fate.

Finally, after ions & ions of time going by, the peri came in & did an internal. OUCHIE! I was not very happy w/ it & she knew about it. She wiggled the cervix around a bit. Then she said, "It is holding strong. I think I feel comfortable enough to send you home for now." WHEW! You have no idea how that hour of waiting was before she said those words. TORTUOUS! I guess I need to get use to this part. How someone can do that, I have no idea.

I am going to monitor 3 times a day now, just to make me feel more comfortable. I just don't want to be having too many contractions at any other given time b/c I always seem to fly right underneath the radar every time I monitor in the morning & in the evening. If I break through w/ more than 4 an hour, my dose of albuterol will go from every 6 hrs to every 4 hrs & if that doesn't work, then I will get the terbutaline pump which would really suck BUT if it keeps the babies in, so be it. I don't know if anyone has had to experience that drug but it makes you really shaky & also makes your heart race. To top it off, it makes you very jittery & ready to jump out of your skin at any sound that is not expected. To give you an idea of what it feels like, think of that long night you didn't have any sleep & then the million cups of coffee you had the next day to keep you awake. Yeah...that feeling...that is what the terbutaline pump will make me feel like all day long.

I have been knocked down to 1 dose of my metformin (500mg) per day. I asked about when we could get the steroid shot for the babies lungs & she said not before 23 1/2 weeks. The babies' lungs aren't developed until that point so you can't give it before then. So, that is only 7 days away if we need it. If I stay stable, she will hold off until it is absolutely necessary.

For now, I am tucked into my own bed & greatful to be home. I am praying that I can stay here until I hit 24 weeks. After that, I will surrender myself to the hospital when they need me to go. What ever it takes...that is what I will do. Thank you all for the well wishes. It was a bit of a scare today but we made it through.

PLEASE keep the prayers coming! We only need another 12 days under our belt. Only 12 days.

PS ~ Jean rock! I received your wonderful care package! LOVE YOU!


Mom of 3 Cute Babies said...

I am so sorry you didnt get the greatest news about your cervix. Its so frustrating and scary, I know I have been there. Keep hanging on, stay flat and dont get up unless you have too. I also did the terbutaline pump, for 10 weeks!! It really wasnt so bad, the bad stuff only lasts the first few days and then your body gets used to it more. Just wanted to help relieve some stress for you about the terb pump. Hang in there!
(MMM26 from TC)

jlaird said...

Hey you! I am sorry you had such a scare. It really does sound frightening. I know you have been holding your breath and praying non-stop since day one. We are thinking about you and praying for you. You just try to stay strong and calm, easy for me to say, right?! I am glad you like your care package. I had so much fun putting it together for you. Since I could not be there to cheer you up I thought it would brighten your day and give you some fun things to play with and try to take your mind off things. We love you! ~Jean

Tristion said...

Ugh, I FEEL you on the terb honey! Horrible stuff! I hope you don't have to have the pump, but I understand the feeling of "whatever it takes to keep them in there."

Please know that I'm praying for you!

Tristion said...

Okay, I just realized I'm on my friend's account. Tristion: yeah that's me, Brittanie (PG loss on JM). I'm sorry for the confusion!

pam said...

hang in there, you're doing great! scary things to hear from your doctor, though. you can do it though, just take it easy.

rachael said...

It is such a scary journey, I know, but hang in there. I was admitted to the hospital for cervical changes and funneling one day shy of 22 weeks and I made it to 29 weeks and 2 days. And the reason for delivery had nothing to do with that or pre-term labor. You can do it, just stay positive and try to relax. Stay strong!!!

Christa said...

Hang in there!!! This triplet journey is something (((BIG HUGS))) for you and the babies.

(Mama2five from TC)

Kim said...

You are in my thoughts. I hope everyone hangs on for several more weeks!!! Oh - and I "know" you from the triplet connection.

Maria said...

Hi! My name is Maria and I came across your blog on another blog I was reading (one of the ladies from JustMommies).
You and your babies are in my thoughts and prayers. My mother in law had triplets 13 years ago. Two girls and a boy.

Maria (His_Mrs on JM)